You are reading this, so I assume that you want to know why I sued Google, how I feel about the freedom of speech, and maybe what you can do to protect yourself against online defamation. Here is my story in my words as best as I can describe it. This blog will also be an online diary to the modeling world as I experience it.

You may have read about me on the Internet. If so, you are probably wondering why all of these horrific things are being said. I am not here blogging to defend myself against what has been written, as I will never defend myself against ignorance. But, I will tell you why these things are being said, and tell you a little about who I really am.

I am a granddaughter, a daughter, a sister, a step child, a friend, an ex wife, an animal lover, a neighbor, a feminist, I work legally in the United States and am a tax payer, a Canadian and a model. A non-partisan, an advocate of racial tolerance, and honest. I am not educated enough in politics to decide where I stand, and sometimes I don’t think I want to be. I do know the difference between right and wrong. I try to make the people around me as happy as I can. I do my part in helping whenever I can; I always try to remain positive, although it is not always easy. I believe happiness is a choice, and not always the easiest choice to make, but worth it every time.

I have never done a blog before, but now I am curious. I would like to get other peoples feed back, but if you are here reading this to call me names, and fight with me, please don’t waste your time. I have no interest in sparring with narrow-minded people. If you have a different perspective than I, please feel free to share.

If you are reading this, the chances are you know that I sued Google and won. The question is: “What does that really mean for you and me”? For one thing, it means that if you are harassed or defamed online, you will no longer have to hide or be embarrassed. Now you can do something about it; you can speak up. People like us – the ones who are losing sleep, jobs, and relationships over it – can have a voice. The people blogging should remember that they could still use their voices for something positive if they so choose, and can even spew hate and defamatory filth about others if they want. The only difference is that, because I fought and won, you won’t be able to remain anonymous any longer.

I was a complete mess this whole year because of this blog, and because of this lawsuit. I prayed for it to be over, I begged journalists to not write about it. I hid in my home, and contemplated ending my life. But, where would that have gotten me, us, the victims? Nowhere. People may have felt bad about a woman that was dead because of what another person had said. And that would have been it! My life would have been over, my family would have been destroyed, and all because some person decided to target me, over nothing. I have spoken to the blogger, we had lunch, we discussed everything she thought I said about her, which fueled her fire to write the blog and we quickly realized that all of the hear say was a lie. We will never know the motivation, but someone lied and I was the one who was damaged by it.

Lets remember what Buddha once said: “do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it. Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many. Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books. Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders. Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations. But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it.”